I am exhausted.
I am a bit emotional, because I am exhausted.
I am a bit emotional, I am exhausted, and I wanted to shove my face with bread, covered in ice cream, topped with whipped cream and downed by a diet soda…yesterday.
Now I feel sick and bloated.
To say to someone, who 1. LOVES FOOD 2. LOVES TO BACK 3. LOVES TO EAT that you can’t eat: grains, dairy, sugar, gluten, some fresh fruit and veg–YOU HAVE TO BE OFF YOUR FACE.
Nope, that’s my reality. I may or may not have Crohn’s–although if I don’t have something–of which may never be diagnosed. However, when I was strictly eating protein and minimal amount of fruit–I felt amazing.
Yesterday I ate so much fruit, not enough protein, was in a ‘binge’ mentality and wanted to not follow the rules because ‘damn it I need __________’. Well, I ate cookies, chocolate, and some sugar candy.
Holy cow, I feel terrible.
This diet has nothing to do with ridding my body of cravings for things. This diet and well frankly LIFEstyle has everything to do with ridding my mental framework and coping mechanisms.
It’s hard. I have to actually accept the fact that this is what it is. To be frank with myself and to use other methods of wanting to emotionally eat to cope with this issues which arise. I am one stubborn girl, and finally I’ve met my match.