So I decided that I was going to go out with a bang tonight..since tomorrow begins Phase 1 of 3 Phases of detox for my gut. As I stated earlier, my naturopath believes that I have what is called Candida. Meaning that the yeast inside of my gut is over producing and causing bloating, sugar cravings, ‘leaky gut’ etc. Many similar symptoms to crohns…but treatable.
-Limited fruit to 1-2 serve per day
Meditation/Yoga, water, green tea, supplements, etc. for at least the first four weeks. Also..by the way lose 44lbs. WTF. I want to cry. If I would have stayed the weight I was when I hit the lowest I had been on my Birthday in September of 168lbs..I would only be away from 154 which is my optimal weight…apparently. FOURTY FOUR POUNDS (deep sigh, tears welling) I am tired of having to lose weight. I am exhausted frankly. But I know that I have to do it. I have to. But this time with healthy, real, honest foods.
I think I can, I think I can…… (tears rolling down left cheek)
Lets get to my LAST SUPPER of greatness. Pizza, ravioli, salad conversation, wine.
I have realised that I have a long road ahead of me. I am exhausted, stuffed, and thankful for incredibly supportive friends.
Detox tomorrow. Please say a prayer for me..I need the strength to let go of the letting go of myself. I need determination and peace..wrapped into one little sugar free roll. 🙂