All I have to say is that I am exhausted. Flat out exhausted.
My soccer game was great…except that I was LATE. I hate being late..honestly I hate it. I had the hour wrong and my coached called me at 1:56pm and goes ‘where are you. we don’t have any subs.’ I go ‘at the grocery store doesn’t the game start at 3pm?’ She goes ‘no, it starts at 2pm’. So I raced to the game. Thank goodness for the rice cake and peanut butter that I had. Yes, it’s more then a smear..whatever.
I snacked on about 1 1/2 c. of grapes on the way to and after the game. I also had about four little orange slices at half time. Also at half time my blisters were no longer protected due to the massive amount of running I was doing. I played the WHOLE 90 minutes..as MID FIELDER–the most amount of running. We only had 11 players and for about 1/2 of the game we only had about 9 players..awesome! Thus, I had to electrical tape my bandaids back on otherwise the pain is too much.
I came home and IMMEDIATELY wanted a Green Monster when I got home: 1/2 c. rice milk, 1/2 c. water, 2 1/2 c. spinach, 1 banana, 1/3 c. blueberries.
I have been rehydrating the whole day with my new water bottle. I won’t tell you how much I spent on it..but it’s the SIGG water bottle..made by the Swiss..apparently.
Tonight for dinner I made Lemon Herbed Fish (8oz) and lemon topped steamed brusselsprouts.
I am not too sure if I am totally sold on the recipe..so I’ll make it again. The herbs I used were basil and rosemary.
I have something that I want to say…because it really hit me today. I went to Mass tonight (I am not Catholic, however I work for a Catholic uni and it’s right down the street). The topic of today’s Mass was loving yourself, seeing yourself as a worth being, embracing the fact that you were made to give as much as you can to yourself so that you can give back to others in ways your feel comfortable. There was religious stuff in there, but that’s not the point.
I was reading through someone’s blog today and they are totally focused on their binge eating, how ashamed they’ve felt, how they need this and that. I TO HAVE STRUGGLED with this. The one thing which the Priest said that struck me is that ‘you can’t give fully of yourself until your recognise that negative feelings towards yourself hinder your ability to love yourself and give’.
I wanted to cry.
There are moments in all of our lives where we feel less than par with our decisions, where we are, who we’re dating, our job, the run we didn’t do. However, it’s about finding the strength inside of each of you..YES YOU to cherish that fact that you’re alive and that deserve to love yourself. To begin to heal over the blisters in our lives that never seem to heal because we keep trashing away at the fact that we do not feel we are worthy. YOU ARE WORTHY!!!!!!!!!!!!
The many stories online of people overcoming body issues is because they stopped obsessing about certain things and gave themselves worth, space, and peace to LOVE THEMSELVES.
Here’s India Arie’s ‘Video’…listen to the lyrics
That’s my sermon. Now go get some love on.