I have had a very interesting day today. I decided to go to a palm reader..the same one that I have gone to before twice. I like her. I feel like she gets me. It’s weird…I don’t know how to explain it. The moment that I sat down she goes:
What has brought you here?
I respond back ‘I have had a terrible six months, I have gained tons of weight. I am unhappy, but tired of being unhappy. I just want to know what you see and what has changed’
She responds back to me ‘Your food is just an insulator for other emotional issues. If you don’t let those emotional issues go, you’ll not be able to move on properly. There’s this woman, Louise Hay and you should read her books and see what she’s about’
The whole session ended up being about 30 minutes. It was interesting because she also did a Tarot Card reading, where there were two cards which showed emotional pain 1. That I was hanging onto 2. That’s what people percieved me as. I am giving off this emotional pain that I am holding onto. The positive though, what that I am filled with more strength that I can imagine and I have to be comfortable with the changes and decisions that I make, because it’s simply me making up my mind and letting everything go.
It felt nice. I get it. It scared me to think that deep down people perceive me as someone who is constantly wallowing and not making positive changes in their life to enjoy it…I would have to agree that it’s probably a true assessment of me most of the time…more so before Timor.
I went and youtubed Louise Hay. I loved this little snipet. I cried. You should watch it.