This is a post which I have wanted to write about for a while. Perhaps it’s just popped back into my head due to a comment that one of my friends said to me today
I do really good with eating, but when people aren’t around then I just kick into unhealthy eating habits.
I bring this up because there are self- sabotaging behaviours in my life, past and present, which have reared their ugly head..and I want to write about them.
- Not finishing a fitness program
- Binging when the scale is low
- Constantly making sure that I am meeting other people’s approval
- Baking late at night when I am tired, after a good day of eating, and binging on the baked goods
I have thought long and hard about these certain things and what it boils down to, for me, is being afraid of success.
AFRAID OF SUCCESS!??!?! Are you kidding me?
Yes…I am NOT kidding you.
How have I gotten over these defeating behaviours?
- Not needing to be perfect for someone else
- Not needing to be perfect for me
- Appreciating myself for where I am
- Doing fitness challenges that I ACTUALLY want to do and not because I feel like I should
- Not weighing myself for the rest of 2009
- Surrounding myself with supportive people
- Remembering it’s a journey
I don’t have the answers. However, this is what ran through my head so much when I was engaging in these defeating behaviours: If I change/lose weight/run a marathon/break-up with someone–then how will I define myself?
I have spent a long LONG time defining myself as a dieter.
- Oh, I am up and down.
- Nope can’t have that, I am on a diet.
- Man, I just really need to stop binging.
- I can’t seem to EVER finish a fitness program
Now: definition of Michelle: I am me.
Have you experienced this before? If so, what have you dealt with and how did you overcome?
Some resources to have a read through: