Hey there….How are things? How ya’ goin’?
My day started off with this huge HUGE apple and 1 TB of almond butter
Then I felt like sh– for the rest of the day. I think that I have a problem (also) with fiber. I was so sick all day long. I remember when I got sick in Japan last year and the doctor told me to go on a low-fiber diet. I am so tired of being sick. I don’t eat sugar, dairy, gluten, wine…and now no F-ing apples. I am exhausted from being sick.
But what do I do? I eat…because I am away from my normal place. I haven’t worked out..and that’s how I cope.
Lunch…hamburger (free range, grassfed) salad w/ a bit of friend potato and hot sauce—good Farm cookin’.
I felt rubbish after this as well. I went to this awesome store in my hometown that sells gifts from all over the world. Great place to get presents. They had a whole section with African gifts…I wanted to jump on a plane right then and there.
I came home and pounded water and had about 1/3 c. of homemade canned tuna. If you have never had fresh canned tuna then you haven’t lived. With 1/2 c. corn that my grandma froze for me from summer..she’s a doll.
For dinner I had chicken w/ homemade pasta sauce and veggies w/ steamed carrots and rice.
Then I baked..why? Because I was sad. Why, because I let the binge monster take over. Gluten free Coconut Butterscotch Cookies (Recipe tomorrow). I had 7 of them. Seven. I didn’t even want to write that. I didn’t want to admit to that. Nope. Not.at.all.
I then realised that what I had made for Ashely’s bake sale wasn’t vegan..so I attempted to make some cornbread apple scone things..that wont work for the bake sale…but even then I ate one of those as well.
When I binged like this before, is was to escape the emotions that I was having or try and ignore the stomach pain I was having. It’s stupid frustrating really. But it’s how I cope. I would (and did do a little bit today) beat myself up. However, I have learned that it won’t consume me. I had one little blip and tomorrow is a new day. I don’t like to make promises to myself about how I am ‘Going to be Better Tomorrow and start by working out.’ However, I am going to write down my workout plan for the rest of the week
- Wednesday: Swim 1.9km
- Thursday: 5km Turkey Trot
- Friday: swim 1.9km and 35 minutes running slow
- Saturday: 1 hour biking
- Sunday: Hiking
That’s what I’ve got. The binge/need to lose weight monster tried to ruin my vacation. HELL NO! I am here to enjoy my time, continue down the path of recovery with my stomach and embrace what I have been given. It’s not easy, but I know that I can.
How do you bounce back from a crappy day?