Focus is where we find our peace in life.
I just have to tell you that I absolutely love reading your blog and from it have learned so much not only about myself but obviously about you! I don’t think you realize how many people you’re actually reaching by being brutally honest and just saying, well, this is me…deal with it. I like you have struggled my WHOLE life with my weight. I have let people tell me I’m not good enough, I”m not pretty enough, I’m not enough of anything and I AM DONE WITH NOT BEING ENOUGH! I am ME and take it or leave it, this is me. Your blog has been so honest and been such a great inspiration to finally love me and accept me and I can honestly say for the first time in 26 years, I like myself. Since March I have lost almost 55 pounds, am in a size 14-16 jeans and a L-XL shirt and I honestly don’t remember when I was that small. I don’t know what it finally was that made me change, but I like the more active me and I like (okay, sorta like) running but I no longer do it for anyone else, I do it for me. There are days when I can’t stand going to the gym or days when I go, seriously I have to eat this salad and I will never be able to just sit there and eat and eat eat, but I do enjoy my food, I do sometimes not go to the gym and I do like me, even when I overeat and stuff the cheesecake in my face. I don’t know why I felt the need to share this, but I really hope you know that in a small way you’ve helped me, with a lot of blood, sweat and prayers, I’m becoming the person I always wanted to be and for once I don’t think it’s unreal, but it’s a reality. Thank you Michelle, I look forward to new posts and congrats on being published! That’s crazy exciting!
I basically wanted to run through the Facebook message that she sent and give her a hug. I loved what she wrote ‘I no longer do it for anyone else, I do it for me!’ This e-mail has come at a great time, because I have been getting sucked, mildly, back into the whole ‘I want to lose weight’ focus monster…which never enables me to shift my focus into a positive frame of mind. It’s funny when we the focus of our lives totally on weight loss…it brings this intense level of perfection, guilt, and ‘I SHOULD’. The binge monster feeds on this and frankly….I am over it. This morning Diane came to the rescue:
Looking back, I realize that when I focused on some goals for myself rather than just the number, things began to turn around. Yes, I still wanted to weigh less than 300 pounds, but I realized there were also other things I wanted to do with my life that weren’t all about weight.
I sat there..and said..Ok…so where’s my focus? It’s on eating clean, working out to cross a finish line, keeping my faith in my heart, and enjoying the time I have with my friends and family.
Weight loss is NO WHERE to be found. For the weight loss baby..I am throwing it out with the bath water.
Thank you Natalie for showing that changing your lifestyle is what eventually makes you healthy. An unwavering approach to living your life to the fullest…is where you find the peace that you’ve been craving.