Thank you for your support on my ramblings about how I am so frustrated with being single and feeling empty because I am not in a relationship. It wasn’t something that was easy for me to admit, and has raised some other areas in my life..where I have to identify the whole feeling of being ’empty’. I had a bit of a rough one after posting this, crawled into bed, and then got a call about an hour later from some friends to come out.
I went out. I had a great night.
I have come to the honest conclusion that I may not be perfect, but what I am going to be is someone who is going to Transform myself. I haven’t been one to place my spirituality much on my blog (it’s my own personal thoughts, of which you do or do not have to believe) but the comfort in knowing that I am ‘enough’ for God, that God is at my side and that I can lay my struggles/fears/internal inadequacies on him…is probably the single most comforting thing I can fall on.
So I lay it on God. I surrender.
I have decided that each morning, when I wake up, I am doing a devotion to myself. Focusing on the core idea of Transform Me: Water, Food, Exercise. Coupled with positive affirmation about my faith in God, myself, and what that day brings.
There are times when I get overwhelmed with tomorrow, next week, etc. To be honest the whole Transform Me thing does get me a bit stressed, because I have aligned myself with showing my weight each week. The ‘you have to lose’ mentality creeps back in.
However, this morning I thought to myself…the whole idea of Transforming myself is beyond weight. It’s about the whole package. It’s not solely about food, it’s about balancing my life out so that I have brought about the most optimum level of satisfaction.
There are many times in all of our lives, where the ONE thing that we want in life (men, goal weight, money, babies, job) is the one thing which trumps the whole entire focus of the being. The whole entire existence becomes focused in on what is supposedly the ‘end all do all’ of that day.
I went out to the beach yesterday with L. He’s comfortable in his skin suit.
I embark on this day with a new-found approach to myself. One where my life is about finding peace in my faith, peace in my Transforming process, and most importantly peace in my skin suit.
How are you and your skin suit?