I pitched an idea to Diane@FitToTheFinish: ‘would you be willing to talk about how after you lost the weight, how you dealt with the inner ‘fat’ voice’. To my happy jolly awesome little soul..she said ‘I’d love to’. So here are the wise words of Diane.
I mean this, she is someone who I admire from the bottom of my heart. Her words have helped me more times then I could repay her. Her insight, gentle and honest approach to sharing her thoughts is so refreshing and encouraging.
‘Silencing the Fat Voice’ ~Diane
I love Michelle’s blog, her philosophy on life, and her energy! I was so flattered and honored when she asked me to do a post for her. Thanks Michelle!
My life has changed in so many ways since I lost 158 pounds. For ten long years, I struggled as a morbidly obese woman. I felt unattractive and dressed like I felt that way. I shied away from social situations because I felt unworthy of people’s attention, and instead of being proactive and doing something about my 305 pounds, I continued to sit on the couch and eat chips. I felt like I lived in a continual downward spiral.
Fortunately, one day I turned my life around and got serious about my health and my weight. In fourteen months, I lost all my weight and regained my life. It wasn’t an easy journey, but it was the best journey I’ve ever been on.
And it didn’t end when the weight loss ended. In fact, the journey just took a new turn.
My life changed in almost every conceivable way. I could wear cute clothes again. I cared about my appearance. I felt more confident around other people, and I was healthier and more fit than I ever had been in my whole adult life.
But even within those outward changes that were obvious to everyone, there were some internal changes that lagged behind.
I had trouble seeing myself as others did. They saw a slim Diane, I saw a fat Diane. They saw a confident woman but I felt anything but. Internally I still felt like the fat girl. It was a continual struggle to silence that voice, and I wasn’t always successful.
There were times I fell back into old eating habits, tempting my newfound health and weight. Fortunately, I had such a fear of regaining my weight that I was able to stop before any major damage was done.
There were also periods during the first couple of years where I felt myself shrinking back into myself because I didn’t feel worthy of attention. To combat this, I had to do some serious “self-talk.” I had to remind myself that I was just as worthy as anyone else, and that I should only step back from life if I chose to, but not because I felt unworthy.
These weren’t easy voices to silence, and they still appear every now and then. Perhaps because it’s been so long since I was morbidly obese that the Fat Voice is weaker now. Or perhaps I just finally learned to listen to the right voice.
Wherever you are in your journey of life, know that you are worth every effort it takes to achieve your goals and objectives. I wish that I had been more self confident as an overweight woman, but even within my apparent lack of self-confidence, there was a glimmer inside of me that believed I could be different.
I’d encourage you to work hard to silence the false voices and listen to the true inner voice that we all possess. It will take you far in your life.
Diane, Fit to the Finish