What do you do when you mess up?
I had a ‘kitchen sink‘ incident last night w/ dark chocolate and bread. My naturo said to try some gluten and small doses of chocolate and see how I went. She probably didn’t mean 3/4 of a huge bar or 4 pieces of bread. This morning was hard. Last night sucked. I made it a week. It was sparked because I didn’t feel ‘deprived’ anymore. I felt free. I wanted to taste everything I hadn’t had in SO long. I was also very dehydrated.
Yoga, thank you for making me hold those warriors, those dancers. For reminding me that I am beautiful. That every day is a new day.
Thank you juicer for making me an awesome recovery drink (celery, cucumber, 1/2 carrot, spinach, garlic). And to my porridge (soaked quinoa, pear, walnuts cinnamon, walnuts, stevia) I love it.
I am not here to hide or bitch or complain about what I did. I am here to be honest. Yep I f-ed up. Now I am moving on. It was interesting last night afterwards. I actually wasn’t sad. I was pissed. It f-ed up my ability to go running morning this morning, my ability to enjoy my last night, my sleep. I don’t feel like engaging in the thing which rob me of that.
For the first time I felt empowered after a binge and not guilty/depressed/lonely. I felt empowered. I felt like it was testing me new found strength to see if I could overcome and move on.
When have you felt empowered by something?