I love that I’m creative, loyal and willing to change and grow. I’ve come to love my body as I nourish it and watch it get stronger and more capable. I’m working on trusting myself, my body and my abilities and silencing the mental talk that tells me I CAN’T and replacing with I CAN.
Have you ever hit the ‘Oh, HELL NO’ wall?
I said ‘Oh, HELL no!’ to myself. I started bingeing again, I got into a very dark place again. For 2 days I dealt with the shit that I have been dealing with over the past year. Then I just said..NO. Michelle, you’re not going to do this anymore.
This shift was sparked by this picture
I was ridiculously happy in this picture and totally happy with my body then. I LOVED MYSELF!
After looking at this picture I got to thinking:
- Since when do you stop believing in yourself?
- Since when do you stop loving yourself?
- Since when do you stop thinking that you can’t simply eat and listen to your body?
- Since when do you bench yourself?
It’s the doubt that festers in the soul of our being that robs the beautiful light that is in all of us.
A Dream Defered By: Langston Hughes
What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore–
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over–
like a syrupy sweet?
Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.
Or does it explode?
Have you ever had an ‘Oh Hell No’ moment? Are you deferring any of your dreams?