I love that I feel like a bright light in the world and that people who meet me are inspired by my joy and enthusiasm.
I love that I no longer obsess about the size of my thighs and instead I am consumed with the size of my heart.
I love my tiny waist, my perfect boobs, my navel piercing, my tattoos, my long neck, my back and my hands and feet.
I love that I am smart, sexy, funny, confident, crazy, passionate, creative, inappropriate, beautiful and complex.
But most of all, I love that I have discovered that I don’t need fixing or improving in order to love and to be loved.
I woke up this moring with a stuffy head, achey temple and the lust…pure lust…for more sleep. As the day progressed I could feel myself and my mental space shifting.
I am coming to grips with learning how to eat and listen to my body. I am not be exercising everyday (opps) but what I am doing is listening to my body. Stopping when I am full, eating when I am hungry and removing the emotional attachement that has for so long ‘ball and chained’ me to abusive patterns.
I headed out for a date tonight…whatever eventuates from it doesn’t matter… I twittered
I actually want to blame JackSh*t for this resurgance and faith in myself today. He doesn’t get ‘blamed’ enough for his amazing words. Both of these posts are bookmarked on my internet window header.
Today is what’s ahead of you, and it’s a day full of promise and possibility. You can make a positive and lasting change in your life and you can start today. All it takes is attention to the smallest of details. All it takes is being mindful about what you put in your mouth, being attentive to your body’s deep yearning to move. There never seems to be a good time to start, but I say that today’s as good a day as any. Today’s your day to start making your life better.
Why not today?
I mean, seriously: why not?
Why not change the things that we both know need changing, dig down deep and really give this journey a true shot at success?
Why not make today the starting point of a new phase in this journey, take this opportunity to shift this baby into a gear that you maybe didn’t even realize you had?
Why not do it, do it right and start doing it today?
I sat with my cute black dress, black cowboy boots, straighten hair, red lipstick and scooter helmet on and thought: Why the Hell don’t I give this a go? It may not be the end all, husband. It may never go to date two. However, I need to most importantly give myself a go, let my light shine, show of my beautiful spirit.
It’s safe to say that although I am sure that JackSh*t wishes he could have been there giving his usual anecdotes, the spirit of those two posts and my renewed sense of who I am and what I like to do was not stiffled by me counting points, thinking about food, and/or worrying about fat rolls.
I just enjoyed every second of tonight, because I allowed myself to share my PASSIONS and be in the moment.
I suppose that’s what it’s really all about..why the hellz bellz not?
So…tell me..what is your ‘Why Not?