One Hopsital Run

A Self-Love reflection from Susan

I love that I am simple-minded. I can almost always simplify the mess that is life and come out drama-free. I’ve come to love my anxiety disorder. It’s something I’ve recently embraced, and it makes dealing with it much easier. I’m still trying to learn how to love my life. I’ve spent too long ignoring it, and I want to love being part of it again.

I was going to write you some bad-ass post about Coconut Porn…but it’s not going to happen tonight.

My life has been crazy these past couple of days. It’s like I went from quitting my job to a blissful and relaxing-filled vacaction…THROWN right back into working. I live where I work, eat, and go to school. It’s a good thing, it’s also exhasuting.

Today, as I was going through a simulation of world poverty at dinner, I got ‘the look’ from one of my staff…Please Help Me NOW! I ran over and talked to a frantic person on the other end.

What resulted was me making a 2 minute decision to carry a burning up, fevered, dehydrated 18 year old girl in my arms, with the help of two boys down stairs and into a car. She had family with her and not only was I in total focus/relieve-disaster mode, but I was also having to reassure a Mother that it would be ok.

I haven’t had kids.

It was the first, of perhaps a couple hosptial runs for the residents that I live with. What struck me to tonight is this:

  • Have a plan
  • A mother’s love is the deepest most compassionate thing I’ve ever seen
  • Hold it together and let go after you know that you can
  • Life is fragile
  • Helping/Serving/Being on-call is great and exhausting

My life isn’t that same that it was six months ago, or even six weeks ago. This situation is yet another affirmation, that changing my life and becoming a nurse, following my dreams and taking on debt…is the right decision.

That’s my reflection for today. The girl is in the hosptial, with her loving mother, and I am headed to be bed covered by the quilt that my grandmother made.

9 thoughts on “One Hopsital Run

  1. love2eatinpa says:

    wow, michelle, that is life changing! sounded like you did everything right, in professional manner. how wonderful to be such an asset to society. you have found your calling! what a great feeling.

  2. Tami says:

    Wow what a day, week, month you have had! Lots of changes it a short period of time.

    What an incredible calling you have had to serve other people in this way.

    Hope all is well with the young lady.

    Enjoy the warmth and comfort of your Grandmothers quilt.

  3. plamarie says:

    Way to hang in there! You just need to do what you want and take time for yourself right now šŸ™‚ (DO IT!)
    Staying tuned for the coconut bown-chicka-bow-wow šŸ˜‰

  4. Shannon says:

    Wow that is quite an experience. Thnak goodness there are beautiful loving people like YOU who are so willing to help another person.
    You are amazing and I am sure it helps bring things into perspective.

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