- First light in the morning
- Breathing fresh air
- The sound of waves crashing on the shore
- Beach sand between my toes
- Empty desert landscapes
- Clear, unbroken, blue sky horizons
- Being able to swim, bike and run
- Laughing when it all gets too much
- My absolute determination and willpower
- Being at peace with myself
- Putting it all into perspective
- A hug, a hand squeeze, a pat on a shoulder – showing that you care, showing you that I care…
- Breathing deeply
- Unexpected colours at sunset
- Shades of violet
- The smell of night blooming jasmine
I thought I would approach this by trying to show, through a stream of consciousness, what I love and what I love about me. I would describe myself as observant, emotional, determined, and sensitive. When I thought about your February challenge, I found myself surrounded by images, sensations, emotions – but not words.
Ever have days when you just can’t get out of a negative frame of mind?
Well, today has been one of those days. I didn’t get enough sleep last night..due to that fact that I am living with about 80, 18 year old students who are legal to drink in Australia. Needless to say I was banging on doors at 1:30am because it was SO loud and noisy that I had to intervene.
I am a perfectionist who doesn’t like change and/or being the ‘fun police’. To be honest it’s hard where I am working at times, because it’s in the middle of a major culture shift, as well as trying to buck the culture within Australia of drinking. I know that drinking is an issue in America, I get that. I am not pointing the finger to Oz. However, if you come to Oz, you’ll notice that drinking is a VERY acceptable form of socialisation.
Alcohol is to an Australian, as sugar is to an American.
I am finding that there’s TOO MUCH to change where I am working, and it’s burning me out. I have a pattern of this. Work, work, work until I completely neglect myself. Stew on ALL of the negative things that are wrong and lose track of the things which are going well. Ever feel this way?
I also struggle at times with change. I don’t know anyone here and frankly making friends with 18 year olds is SO beyond me, I can’t even begin to explain.
What I have decided is the following
- Control what I can change
- Let go of things I can’t
- DO NOT make work my life
- Keep eating healthy
I made myself go to the gym. I circled the cardio machines, walked around like a lunatic and then said Michelle, I don’t care if you don’t do a routine, but you need to be moving for 25 minutes. So I just bounced around from doing squats, arms, abs, legs, planks. I didn’t have a method to my madness…except to move.
Do you ever get in a negative funk? How does it impact you? How do you get out of it?