I love that I used to be a secret smoker and would never exercise and now I can run 3 miles without stopping! I love that my eyes went from brown to hazel over the course of my life and wow, what those eyes have seen so far has been amazing. I have realized how wonderful having such straight hair is, I never have to waste precious morning minutes with the likes of a straightener, thereby getting more time with my beautiful children. I love that I can admit my faults out loud to the virtual world and beyond and I am excited to continue my goal of becoming a better mom, friend, person, and well…overall, just live my life in truth.
Before I start anything, I want to say I am SO SORRY to Brandon for not linking him back properly for is Self-Love reflection. It’s all sorted, but my apologies all around.
I have been thinking a lot these past couple of weeks about me, my blog, my life, and taking on school.
As I have written before, EatingJourney has been an amazing place for me to grow, expand upon, acknowledge my successes, my short-comings and my inner-most thoughts. It’s hard to even contemplate the idea of shutting it down. Walking away from it. Saying good-bye to the EJ community.
The e-mails, comments and tweets are the motivation that I have used to keep myself going. To blog when my eyes are burning out of my head, to give the little perk in the morning to see what wise advice will be bestowed upon me.
Something about that post really struck me. I need to be totally honest with myself. What my limits, strengths, uglies, pretties are. My job, my focus right now is to be in the ever approaching moment, filled with the Love of God, and to extend myself into my studies. If I am NOT doing that, then I am robbing myself of the very essence of what I am hoping to accomplish in my life.
This blog has provided the place, whereby I am in a spot of learning, re-learning, un-learning and simply be in the teaching moments which are now a part of my life. To not be able to share those experiences with you would be so sad, depressing and empty.
But, to continually spend hours upon hours glued to my blog, my google reader, and twitter–is robbing me of the precious time due to constraints that are now a part of my reality. This doesn’t mean that you aren’t the most cherished people I have in my world. However, I feel as though if I am going to enjoy my journey…I have to be present in my NOW.
So…on February 28th…I will post my last post on EJ. I will continue with Self-Love, I will write from my heart. I will write about my crazy antics. I hope that you comment your heart out. Get it all out.
I am here…In Australia…reading my readings for Nursing…singing in the choir…getting up to the parrots singing…eating with people from all around the world.
Living in the present. Knowing that five more days…it’s gonna be hard…but I know what is in my heart and this decision is right for me, right now.