The other day I was at Mass. (I am not Catholic, I attended as part of my obligations at work. Although, I would identify myself as Christian)
The Priest said during the service ‘The point is that you have to live God’s plan. You have to live the plan that is outlined for you. You CAN’T live for anyone else. Looking for affirmation and accolades outside of yourself will leave you empty. Lead from your path. You have to have faith in your journey and do as that is there.’
I then was reading through a section of my Bible (1Peter5:6-11)
I went to hang my laundry out on the line and I started bawling. Am I listening to the path which is outlined for me? Am I honouring what I feel is right in my gut? Am I focusing on other people/diets/men to make me feel ‘good’ about myself? Do I love who I am in this very moment?
I have tossed about on EJ before. “ended it”—> went to a new blog to give up sugar —> changed my twitter name twice –> vowed to never blog again
These were all attempts to ‘try and sort myself out’
I have had some amazing conversations with Miz and with Christie. After this whole experience I shared what happened with Christie and honestly it hit me…if I am going to be here in the blogging world (which I love) I need to share my story. But really, my success.
EJ has a shite load of pain and dieting attempts. However, what I realised whilst hanging clothes and crying (cause apparently that’s a nice place to have mini-breakthrough/downs) was that I have a gift to show people.
Yes..I have about 30-35lbs to lose
Yes..I am on a journey to intuitively eat
Yes..I have fraffed about
Yes..I am sure people have no idea if I’ll quit
I am going to share my faith (occassionally), I’ll probably cuss, be crass. But what I am going to stear away from is punishing myself and dragging myself into deep/negative spaces. What I want to show to myself and to those who are out there is a growing understanding of what we, I, can do if I put my mind to it.
So..I am back. Back with a foundation in my faith to follow what I know is right in my heart.
Harnessing My Intuitive Self