Something that hit me this weekend how much I have been impacted by others…others who have been themselves to me. Throughout my life I have had people who have been a true impact on me. They were there when I’ve needed to shake things up. To view myself as something different. To have that helping hand.
- Mrs. DeHus: 6th grade science teacher. She gave me the time of day. She gave everyone her undivided attention.
- Mr. Bullock: High School Leadership Teacher. He has such a passion for life. He loved his job, loved giving back to the students and really inspired me throughout high school.
- Tom: Friend for 10 years. He gets me like most other people don’t. He says really inappropriate things at really inappropriate times and I adore him for that.
- Ervina: She have given me my faith.
- Christie: I couldn’t have walked down this intuitive eating journey without her.
I think through the major break through that I had on Friday. I still have the picture of the ‘False Self’ crumbled up in my purse. A constant reminder of the little part of me that no longer matters. I had someone ask me if I was going to burn it. To be honest, I didn’t know how to respond to that question. I suppose that in some ways it’s good to burn it. But right now (kind like keeping your old photos, holey yoga pants) it’s a little reminder of what I was. I know at some point I will get rid of it.
But, yes…even my False Self has been someone who has shaped me.
My TRUE SELF is even more powerful.
The thing which has been nagging at me this weekend….is the BEAUTY OF LIFE..and the people who are in it. How you can stumble across someone and they change your life. How the sheer ability to be patient with a friendship and choose to maintain that can be one of life’s greatest gifts.
I was sitting in church this weekend and we had a presentation from WorldVision about two rescued child soldiers. I mean, kids who were raped, married off at 13, shot at, had bombs blow up their legs, were told to shot guns at 11. Who’s parents wouldn’t accept them afterwards.
I have grown up not having to worry about money, my health is stabilised, I have nice things, I have my faith, my family, my friends. What I need pales in comparison to what children/people all over the world need.
As I sat there, the Pastor goes ‘May you use what talents and resources you have to reach out to those around you who don’t have it. That is a true blessing. That’s how we bring about change. By reaching out’.
The beauty of my journey, your journey, is that it’s marked by spurts or lengths of time with people and events that have impacted you. Someone who paid your rent, had a coffee with you, gave you the best kiss you’ve ever had, the best food you’ve ever tasted, showed a side of them that made you realise that you could be a little more vulnerable as well.
One of the most intense realisations from Friday is that the constant need to appease others, conform to meal plans, and the pressure that I put on myself…was STIFLING ME from living. From me sharing my gifts to others. From doing things for others. FROM LETTING PEOPLE IN!!!! What hit me is that to live your life you have to open yourself up. Give of what you have, in whatever shape you have..so that you may be open to receive.
Those people who impacted you, those events that have changed your life…were because you let yourself be open. Who knows…who you’ve impacted…by simply being you.
Who has impacted you? How do you give/show your true self to those around you?
Harnessing My Intuitive Self
‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? // When did we see you a stranger and invite you in? When did we see you sick or in prison and go visit you?’ // The King will reply, ‘I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me’.