As some of you may know, I am a nursing student right now.
I went to go and help a Murse (male nurse) insert pain medication up the bum of an old man. NOT glamorous. I was looking over his body and realised that his feet and hands were like an auburn colour and totally swollen.
What became very apparent to me, is that man was NOT in good shape.
I asked the Murse and he goes ‘two days ago he was able to respond to questions, knew where he was. Now he’s 24-48 hours away from dying.’
The family he has is his daughter.
The life he led, I hope it was full.
I think that many times it’s so easy to get caught up in the wants/needs/desires of life. But it made me realise something that I’ve never really had to deal with before..dying. That all of the choices that we make, the daily ones to feed our bodies, give it sleep, starve it, hate it, love it, sex it, relax it…all do ADD UP.
I struggle with the diet restrictions that I have (no dairy, gluten, soy, almonds, kidney beans, coffee, fruit–limted quanities) and to be honest I haven’t actually given any of them up 100% because ‘I have the rest of my life to live’ ‘It isn’t THAT bad for me’.
But the point is, is that every single day we’re making a tick in the box or not for perhaps 10 more minutes with those who love us.
That man was beautiful and he was dying painfully.
I just want to hug him and say Thank You, for making me realise that my life is too damn precious to waste.
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