I wanted to write you a letter…cause I think that you may need it. I know that you have struggled so hard in the past couple of years to be the PERFECT person that you think that you need to be. In fact, I know right now that Fight to the Finish is really getting to you and bringing up old binging habits, because you know that you going to gain weight this week. It has nothing to do with the weight, I know this, it has everything to do with the fact that you think that you’re losing.
Hon, please for the love of God and all that is holy..can you please see yourself as we see you? You’re intelligent, feisty, down-to-earth, emotionally open, honest, creative, and hard-working. We don’t love you because you are this or that. MEN don’t love you because you are this or that.
I know that it’s hard to power through old patterns. To not find validation in ice cream, snacks, over-eating, treating your body like crap. I get it. It’s all over the blog world of people finding the place in their lives where they accept themselves as they are in the moment and stop worrying about what they should be…and instead love themselves as they are. In their changing ways. This, I know is not easy.
My only advice to you Michelle, is to live the life that you want to live. Start thinking about how you want to be in your life. What does it look like to wake up in the morning? What does it look like to eat? How do you feel? What do you actually WANT to be doing with you fitness? How do you actually WANT to look?
I suppose it’s really about starting to make your life the life that you really do want. Do you want to be thinking about weight and calories and points and binges your whole life? If you want to..then go for it..if you don’t then release yourself from it.
You were once given advice from Katy to ‘fake it til you make it’. Babe, maybe you just gotta live your life the way you see yourself as being..even if it feels weird at first.
I have so much faith in you. I know KNOW that you don’t see it…but I am going to plant this little seed in your mind…and if you want to water it…you can. You’ll start seeing yourself like we do. Capable of becoming all that you are.