I have been struggling.
I should have NEVER EVER joined Fight to the Finish, because it brings my focus so much back to my weight and it’s a constant place of obsession, binging, and the feeling of being defeated.
But it’s more than that.
I am tired of thinking about being perfect at uni, what men think, how my tummy looks, how I should be studying, how I should be working out.
My friend said to me tonight “You need to write out your expectations of yourself and throw them all away, cause they’re WAY too high.”
I am tired of feeling guilty, bloated, binge-full, tired, exhausted, consumed mentally.
I just want to be.
I simply think too often all of us (women especially) look outside of ourselves for validation, answers or ’saving.’ When I finally realized that I could be my OWN superhero it was life changing.I didn’t require anyone to swoop in and save me – everything I needed was already waiting within. I just needed to be STILL and listen.
Then she goes onto say
For me there is no balance. For me balance is an elusive state. I strive to achieve work/life harmony. In a way it all resembles the act of juggling. Some life-balls may be lower than others at any given point in a day/week/month/year—but as long as they don’t slam to the ground I deem it a success.
It’s TIME to listen to ME. I have said it before, but the moment, the SINGLE MOMENT that I stop listening to myself is when the chatter of everything else suffocates not only me…but my ability to listen and enjoy life.
Do you look within? Or outside?
Thank You Miz!