I have REALLY struggled with food choices today.
I am TRYING to abandon counting points, weighing myself…as validation for ‘good’ choices and/or for ‘bad’ choices….to allow myself to eat more.
It’s hard work.
It’s hard to let go of the past.
I had to get down and dirty with myself after almost bingeing today and TOTALLY over-eating at both meals and ask myself
“ARE YOU REALLY WANTING TO DO THIS? DO YOU REALLY WANT TO BE THIN HEALTHY?”
I looked at myself in the mirror. That means that my dependency upon food to ‘take me away’ from my emotions/studying/working out/sleeping etc. is no longer my immediate and entrenched option.
I make no promises…cause I hate them…cause I usually can’t keep them.
But, what I do know…is that the answer to my tired, stuffed face was YES.
Have you asked yourself..honestly…if you’ve wanted what you thought you wanted? What was the answer?
Not annoyed, just thankful that I was real with myself