What does ‘Faith’ mean to you?
Every tomorrow has two handles. We can take hold of it by the handle of anxiety, or by the handle of faith. ~Author Unknown
I have to say that last night during my 1/2 marathon training I didn’t even think that I could finish a mile in the 12 minute trial run that we had. I was doubting my own ability.
I circled after 4 laps and asked “What time am I at?” and my trainer replied “9:30”
I screamed! Here was was doubting myself and thinking that I wasn’t going to make a 12 minute mile and I was busting out a 9:30. You see the whole time that I was running the four laps I held myself back. ‘What if I can’t make it to the end, I need to make sure that I hold myself back’.
I have held myself back a lot in the past…cause frankly I didn’t have faith in myself. I didn’t think that I could dig deep and/or that I had anything to give if I dug deep.
This lack of faith also manifests with my weight/body image. I am currently 30+lbs heavier than I was at my lowest. Now, I am still 100lbs+ less than I was at my heaviest. Baby, that’s great!
But in the last two years of my life, gaining back the 30lbs, I have lost faith in my own ability to lose weight. I have become complacent with my current state, mentally, which manifests in me not working out, bingeing at times, and wearing frumpy clothes. I have lost faith in my ability.
Faith to me it rooted in my religious choosing with the knowledge that I personally feel connected to something bigger than me. HOWEVER, I would argue that FAITH in YOURSELF is where you have to start. I am learning this…that people’s faith in us, God’s faith in me….pails in comparison with my own Faith in myself.
Once I realise that I was able to run the 9:30 mile I ended up overtaking a woman who was almost 100m in front of me at the very end. I had it in me!
So I ask you, where does your personal faith come from? How faithful are you in yourself?
Feed your faith and your fears will starve to death. ~Author Unknown
Harnessing my personal faith