After writing about my post today regarding exercise…I have to report that I didn’t do any of it today.
I am feeling a bit overwhelmed and thrown off my axis:
- I am moving house, feeling a bit off-center and that kicks in HYPER-CRITICAL Michelle Mode.
- I wanted to shove my face in ice cream.
- I wanted to not go to the gym and pick apart everything I hated about my body.
- I dove into a small grave of pity after being invited to a cocktail party by entertaining, briefly, the sentiment of ‘if only I was thinner’.
But you know what..I’ve snapped out if it.
I have snapped out if it, because I realise that it’s the OLD MICHELLE talking. I have to be patient with my journey in being balanced and know that I may never truly find it..but I don’t have to succumb to old ways.
The only reason I ever used to exercise was to be thin.I didn’t really think about the health benefits or how the exercise was helping my mind, spirit, or insides. I only thought about how my body would look when I looked in the mirror. After I started learning about health and nutrition, my whole attitude changed. I started setting fitness goals and started to focus on what my body could do instead of how it looked.During this time, I also realized that I needed a lot of fuel to allow my body to do what it is capable of. There is no way I could have trained for a 10k, 10 miler, and 2 half marathons by starving myself or over-exercising. The body is capable of amazing things if we would only give it the love and care that it needs.
I am snapping back..damn it. I am.