I am having a great weekend. It’s just been lovely. I have been enjoying my students. I took a couple of them to church today and then we went out to gelato!
Who doesn’t love a double scoop of gelato (passion fruit/blood orange)
This whole excursion got me thinking about what had happened earlier this morning. I have been totally taken back by this post by Alan. His words resonated with me and have sparked me thinking all weekend.
Have you ever asked yourself the question, “What are you waiting for?” I have asked myself this question for most of my life.
I have had a bit of a ‘validating need’ type of a relationship with the scale lately. If I am going to let go of dieting can I actually lose the weight that I want? Then I stood there naked and looked at my clothes.
If I was able to get into those jeans again
If I was able to be at 168lbs again
If I was in a relationship again
If I was able to look like I did again
If I was able to stick to a healthy diet again
……..I WOULDN’T BE HAPPY!
I am looking at the end ‘goal’ and forgetting the most important part…the journey. If I choose to equate my happiness solely with a goal weight, a size of jean, or exercising every single day…then I am forgetting about nurturing my spirit along the way. I did that once. I got to 168lbs and I was f-ing miserable.
I had a choice this morning…to let a number rob me of the journey or recognise it as something that isn’t as important as waking up every morning with a smile on my face…cause no matter what I am harnessing my spirit.
I don’t know why I haven’t embraced that before. Why I have shied away from loving myself right now in this very moment. Why I kept thinking that I wouldn’t find someone til I was thin. Why I let the scale ruin so many days. Why I punished myself with exercise. Why I let my spirit die.
But I can tell you something…I am so looking forward to just embracing my body, my mind, my spirit.
I don’t know what to tell you except the end goals in life, if you’re not satisfied on the way, will not bring what you’re hoping for. So I urge you to stop trying to tick boxes as a way to bring you what you’re wanting…instead go skip down the street on the way to your final goal of becoming what you’ve always wanted to be.
Ever accomplished a goal, to be left unsatisfied? why?
Ever accomplished a goal and left satisfied? why?