I am not exactly sure what is happening in me…but let me try and flush it out for you.
I am on this intuitive eating journey. It’s great. It’s weird. It’s hard. It’s not ANYTHING I’ve ever experienced before.
It demands that I listen, honour, nurture, and respect myself.
But how do I do that when I have never ever honored my hunger signals before? I’ve always honored my point signals, the time on a clock and/or the emotional voices in my head.
How do I eat when I am honestly hungry and stop when I am full….when I don’t really know what that feels like?
I am panicking a little learning not to panic as much, because when you start on this intuitive eating journey and you don’t know hunger signals…the idea of packing as much food in ’cause you can’ races through your mind. For me, in my mouth. Everything is ‘fair game’.
Or is it?
I do think that all food is fair game. But…..only if…..you listening to your body, honouring your health, eating for the right reasons, and stopping when you’re content.
Content and not full?
I have been walking around this weekend and eating healthy food. Chia seeds, rice milk, you name it. I have been on the healthy food bandwagon.
BUT…I am still eating til I am FULL and not content. I am pushing beyond what my body is saying. I am STILL kicking the dieting mental games. When you’re dieting, you want to feel full. Cause you may not have any more calories/points left unless you run/workout/promise tomorrow you’ll take some down to cover what you’ve eaten today.
I want to bulk up, because emotionally I need to feel full.
The point is, is that there’s a difference between being content and full. Being hungry and mentally needy. Being intuitive and giving endless permission.
But I am here to say…bring them on. I am ready. I will never go down the road I’ve always taken….it’s never gotten me to where I want to be.