There have been so many times when I have said to myself ‘AM I THERE YET?”
In fact, I have pretty much lived my life to cross some sort of ‘Finish Line’. Where if I got there then I would have something to say for myself. In these focused moments, I have forgotten about the journey!
If I get to 168lbs then I’d be happy again.
I was looking through these pictures the other day and I was 168lbs. I was miserable. Getting, crossing the ‘finish line’ with my weight never got me where I actually wanted to be…happy.
If I just let God have all my binging troubles, then I’d be cured.
When I got baptised, I cried. I was ready to hand ALL of my problems over to God. To be cured! I have been thinking about this a lot, the notion of ‘handing it over to God. I actually don’t think it’s that easy. I think that in order to hand over your problems to God, you have to be open to the pain you’re experiencing, to be willing to work through it, and use your spiritual faith to give you wings. It’s not just about handing it over.
If I stop eating sugar/ice cream/chocolate then I’ll stop binging.
Again, it’s NOT about food, it’s about the emotions behind them. I can’t TELL you how many times I have tried to stop eating sugar, to then binge on it.
If I start tomorrow, then I PROMISE that I’ll be good and on my way.
Wanna know how many tomorrows I have had?
If I train for a 1/2 marathon, 10km, do ‘Body for Life…then I’ll finally feel fit, happy and skinny.
Although, I look happy in this pictures (I am throw a smile on), I didn’t train and was running to be skinny. I have tried to train for a 1/2 marathon numerous times..as well as ‘Body for Life’. When doing anything to be skinny…you will never get there. It has to be for other reasons, at least for me. If I am doing it to be skinny…I always rebel, because I don’t want to have to deprive myself and force myself to do something to be skinny.
If I start this diet…then I’ll FINALLY be where I want to be.
SO…..I have been trying to be ‘perfect’ with my diet. Tracking everything, even when I had a big night on Friday. Cutting back my calories, working out, and trying not to binge out of stress or let it go because I have had nothing
Nope. You wont.
I have lived SO much of my life for the ‘THERE’ or ‘FINISH LINE’ that I have forgotten to enjoy the journey. AND really, have pretty much given up every single time because IT’S NOT ABOUT THE FINISH LINE.
In this whole intuitive eating/living revelation….something has hit me: Is the idea of a ‘Journey State’.
Journey State: the state at which you want to travel/run/walk/skip/live through life.
The finish line is boring. It’s stagnant.
A Journey State is exciting, changing, forever.
So, what’s you’re Journey State like?