I was sitting on the toilet this morning, TMI. And I was looking at the toilet paper dispenser
It’s a circle. I was reflecting upon the place that I am in today…and yes..I have ROUGH moments..BUT I am learning something quite profound. It got me thinking about the thought patterns that keep playing in my head…it’s like a cycle that I can’t shake sometimes.
I have identified so MUCH with the cycle of dieting.
BUT, what I got to thinking about today was the idea of identify with the struggle of it all.
That ‘struggle’ becomes this constant reminder that we have ‘something else to work on’. It’s been very interesting and I think that even those of us who find ourselves in a better place, have to release the idea of ‘struggling’ to feel complete.
I think the reason I struggle to live in the Journey State you’re talking about – and instead focus solely on the finish line – is because I’m constantly feeling unsatisfied, discontent, wanting MORE.
This comment made me think even more because of something that Mary tweeted today
It’s crazy. I have all these amazing things happening in my life but I keep catching myself criticzing/putting myself down. What the..?
You know what..I am NOT going to give you some ‘happy clappy’ advice. Because it’s more than that. It’s actually letting go of the struggle mentality. It’s so tiered, this process, and I can promise you that everyone goes through it differently.
For me I had to admit there was a problem, find great resources/people, get it out of my head, and paying attention to things that really have me frozen. It’s not easy peasy. It’s not one quote, or one person, or one event. It’s the faith, determination, awareness, patience to keep going.
But, when you’re on this road, or you’ve gotten and/or are getting to your Journey State, there’s a part for some of us who have to give up the idea that we have to be in a struggle.
Part of living is to realise that there will be struggles…but it’s not a struggle that needs to be lived.