Me Time

I just want to say that you are all AMAZING. Thank you SO much for your encouraging words after my post last night! It means SO much to me. Part of my recovery process it being HONEST all the time with myself..and that means sharing my life with you.

I laid in my bed last night and bawled my eyes out.

I was DESPERATELY scared that I would slip back into the crazy shit that I’ve been trying to overcome and not succumb to for the past 20ish days. It’s hard.

I realised that it was because I was wanting a RELEASE/ME TIME! I need my space. I have lived on my own for the past two years and now I am living in a fish-bowl where I am the source of knowledge for 19 students.

So I took 30 minutes today and went for a run. The first time I’ve ever looked at exercise as an escape, for me physically, mentally, spiritually.


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Dare I say that run was orgasmic. I am serious. Bliss. I didn’t run because I needed to ‘run off’ anything, or try to bring the scale number down. I ran for ME!

This whole recovery journey is weird. It’s freeing, scary, and raw. It’s exhausting and yet life giving. I always find is fascinating that I can resonate with people, and I feel so honoured..at my core..that my story/words/crazy talk can reach out to people.

HappinessIsWithin has a guest post about my WHOLE journey: weight loss, binging, recovery. Such an amazing post to write, with photos 🙂 I really encourage you to have a read of it and also the other body loving posts!

I am off to bed. Cause sleep..is ME time.

How do you take “Me Time”?

~Mish

20 thoughts on “Me Time

  1. CertifiablyFit says:

    My ultimate ME time is taking a good long bike ride. Not only am I getting the benefits of the feel good hormones that get released it gives me uninterrupted time to have a positive talk with myself.

    Sleep is a close second 😉

  2. Kendra says:

    Mish,
    I swear you and I are at similar points in our respective journeys…your writing could be mine…its uncanny. I am at my best when I have scheduled “me” time-I’m balanced, have mental clarity, greater awareness…its an amazing feeling. But that me time means less time with my boys, paying a babysitter (a small fortune to get back to the self-care I once experienced before my husbands schedule changed and the shit hit the fan for me)…so I’m working on being creative about what I deem “me time” since I can’t go get 3 hours worth of acupuncture a week anymore. But that shift in thinking and change in habits is still a process and in its infancy for me…patience with myself is also a virtue.

    I applaud you…I appreciate you for putting those familiar feelings on paper…and I send you warm wishes and healing thoughts!

    Warmly,
    Kendra

  3. Sarah says:

    Sometimes I just say “no” to being at every youth group, family, or friend-related event. And stay home by myself, reading, sleeping, writing, or chopping veggies. Or I take a yoga class. No one can bother me there!

  4. missyrayn says:

    Running is a huge release for me. And now that I can’t do it I find getting out of my space (home) and going somewhere to read is really helpful. It gets me out of the place my mind goes nuts and take time to relax.

  5. dmcgirl37 says:

    Isnt it great to do exercise for a reason besides weight or food. I love how exercise gives me a boost of energy and makes me feel strong. It’s hard for me to always keep such a pure intention exercising though. Somedays I cant help but fall into my old mindset of ‘burn as much calories as possible because you are a terrible person for eating food’. I’m getting better though, day by day!!

    Dana xoxo
    http://happinessiswithin.wordpress.com/

    PS
    Thanks so much for the guest post today 🙂

  6. Michelle says:

    I have really only just discovered you but in that short time I have been amazed, inspired, astounded, blessed ( I cant find the right word!). You are honest to others, strangers, for things that I am stuggling to be honest with my self about. Your courage and vulnerability are breath-taking.
    Thank you

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