I just want to say that you are all AMAZING. Thank you SO much for your encouraging words after my post last night! It means SO much to me. Part of my recovery process it being HONEST all the time with myself..and that means sharing my life with you.
I laid in my bed last night and bawled my eyes out.
I was DESPERATELY scared that I would slip back into the crazy shit that I’ve been trying to overcome and not succumb to for the past 20ish days. It’s hard.
I realised that it was because I was wanting a RELEASE/ME TIME! I need my space. I have lived on my own for the past two years and now I am living in a fish-bowl where I am the source of knowledge for 19 students.
So I took 30 minutes today and went for a run. The first time I’ve ever looked at exercise as an escape, for me physically, mentally, spiritually.
Dare I say that run was orgasmic. I am serious. Bliss. I didn’t run because I needed to ‘run off’ anything, or try to bring the scale number down. I ran for ME!
This whole recovery journey is weird. It’s freeing, scary, and raw. It’s exhausting and yet life giving. I always find is fascinating that I can resonate with people, and I feel so honoured..at my core..that my story/words/crazy talk can reach out to people.
HappinessIsWithin has a guest post about my WHOLE journey: weight loss, binging, recovery. Such an amazing post to write, with photos 🙂 I really encourage you to have a read of it and also the other body loving posts!
I am off to bed. Cause sleep..is ME time.
How do you take “Me Time”?